CAIYAN

2009-07-13T19:53:00.004+08:00

Moved.

http://withintheboundary.wordpress.com/

2009-07-12T20:46:00.002+08:00

Somewhere Else.

2009-07-11T21:34:00.007+08:00

Paused Mode,

Baby asked me to post one back to him,
And he created a "Thank-Your-Best-Friend-Or-Partner-Week".
So it goes to him:
You've been great and the best that ever happened!
Although sometimes i really don wished to even talk to you,
But yeap, you'll still try your means to make me happy.
Thank you for everything, really everything you've done.
Love you okayyyyyyy Baby?

I don't know which best friend(s) should i dedicate to,
Because i dont seemed to find them sometimes or now.
Cuz We're on a different track?

Lastly,i love my lunchbreaks/lecture/slacking/joking clique above! :)

I'm having a really bad headache now. I've been waking up early at 6am for 2 days straight, i really wonder how i survive when i was in secondary school. Work's such a drag, and i can't help being pissed off with those typical people. Lunch at home today, and met Baby to coffee bean to mugggg today. Didn't have any intentions to go out, so i got some work done and i cleared my Blaw tutorial and finished 3/4 of my slides for the dinner this friday. We went for dinner, and headed back home. I've yet to start with POA tutorial, and I'm yawning already.

I don't know why, I've got a sudden craving.
Yes for food, but it's a pinic at somewhere quiet and nice.
Okay, i'm in dreaming mode now.

Things weren't the same now, so much different.

2009-07-10T21:32:00.004+08:00

Load,

LMS Project/Role Play, ~~checked~~.
Bmgt Assignment, unchecked.
Tutorials, unchecked.
Tribute slides, unchecked.

Finally, this freaking packed week's like so over. And I finally can slow down my footsteps a lil, at least to slack and do some of my own things. Oh yes, I've got a craving for oreo cheesecake again. Anyway, dinner with Baby and Ant at the Bt. food centre, we ate like alot? From Hokkien Mee, to Rojak, to Satay Beehoon and etc. And today, cleared our roleplay and off to Megabites with Baby for his super late lunch. And we went over to Signature Park to catch up with twin and Simin. Gah, I feel so drained now and my eye's so heavy now.

This is when we get super bored during bmgt lecture (!!)

2009-07-07T22:17:00.005+08:00

Always,

Happy 1st year Anni Baby (L)
7th July 2009.
Now, and always. xoxoxo

More to comeeeeee, now work time!

2009-07-06T15:53:00.006+08:00

Inconsistency,

So much to do, yet so little time.
Can time just run a little slower, or just stop.
I can't catch up with the speed now.
I'm feeling so so tired now. ):
And i feel like lying flat on the bed and sleeeep.

2009-07-03T21:13:00.004+08:00

Flashing lights

The week's finally ended, but i've still got piles of project/work which I'm so not in the mood to touch it at all. And, i have not been flipping my notes again. On a lighter note, our LMS report's a rather good one according to the tutor. *relieves* Apparently, we've been entertaining ourselves today during class again.

Baby bought me light lunch today, and sent me to school, then waited for my class to start before he goes off. Pretty nice of him! And Dearest Sitting Partner came tooooo, i haven't seen her for ages though camp's like just over. We slacked at Our Space's games room, and got hooked up by some animal barn game, making those farm animals sounds. I've been such a great eater recently, it's not a good start anyway. Control! Left for home around 6pm.

4 more days!

2009-07-01T20:51:00.003+08:00

Tumbles,

I've got back my results, except for POA i guessed the rest were not as well as i expected it though. But i guessed it's no point being emotional now. Anyway, thankyouuuu Jasmine for the big hug today! And thankyouuuuu baby for your guidance for POA okayyyyy! :)

And i've been packed with tutorials, and projects that's due in a few weeks time. There's so much to do yet so little time. Somethings happened at the midst of the project, but we've moved on ourselves. School's been a drag, except for break time!

Baby came over to pick me from school today, very nice of him despite his "heavy" bag! And i met Twin today, after so many days. Catch up a lil, and then back home for dinner. I've got lime honey juice handmade by cousin todayyy! (L)

I decided to change to somewhere else again, no idea where but i'm sick of staying in blogger.

Now, it's back to my "beloved" projects again!

6 more days! (L)

2009-06-27T21:27:00.011+08:00

Stranded,

Suddenly i missed the camp times when time just fly past so slowly, and furthermore i could see love every single day. It's 2 more days till school starts again, a mixed feeling of happy/anxious. I really wished time could moved a little slower, or just stopped at one beautiful moment.

Anyway, I'm back to work again.
I have to get up of bed early, get ready for work and wait for time past to 1pm when i knocked off from work. Lunched at home today, and went out to meet Baby. We've decided to comb as much places we went before today. But, we only managed to get to Bugis and Marina today. I wanted to get things, but nothing caught my eye at all. I want bags/clothes/shoes/bottoms. I stopped Baby from his temptations of catching softtoys today! :) We walked around, catch up with each other, and lastly took lots and lots of photos. Went over to Esplanade rooftop after dinner for a walk, but we also get to preview the NDP 2009. I was super dumb during the "bombing" session just now. Took the long bus journey back home, and somehow I feel really emotional again. It's the second time, but I guessed I couldn't hold on.

My dearest one!

The hills are getting hard to climb
And I'm running out of time
I'm so lack of that strength now.

2009-06-25T20:59:00.012+08:00

Dunearn SL Camp 2009

I'm back from the 3 days of camp, like so finally. It was at the scouts camp very inside the Lim Chu Kang area, super ulu place. Despite the unappealing food and place, i had fun with them. I was with Isabelle in Group 5, Mother Teresa. They were awesome people, except sometimes i really can't get any response from them.

Anyway, first day was Mass Games and Flag Making.

And this is my group! :)

There's night walk at the evening, and I was really freaked out by Ressal's ghost stories. Went through the walk with the JAs and the instructors, we're the last few so it's kinda of creepy esp when i was walking the last one, but yeah Baby held me all the way through the walk :)

Second day was the Sentosa Amazing Race with Qianmei and group 6, Rafting and also the mass bbq at the evening. Oh, and we entertained ourselves with charades for the whole night!

Last day was cleaning up, mass entertainment, debrief, and HOME day! The JAs went over to KFC for a well deserved lunch after so long of yucky food!

And guess what, I never feel that tired with the lack of sleep. I slept from 830pm to 9.30am today but i'm still tired now. Gosh!

2009-06-21T12:39:00.005+08:00

In the middle of nowhere,

Happy Daddy's Day,
Although i don know who can i say this to.

Anyway, thing's been slightly better finally.
Back to Dunearn yesterday for Logi day,
And over to Lot1 with Baby, and the rest.
Belle and me managed to get our identity done.
Dinner, Mac, and homed.

Work later,
And i'll be gone for 3 days.
Byee!

2009-06-18T20:47:00.005+08:00

I want to feel the rain,

The shades pulled down, covering the sun.
Had been caught in the crossroads once again.
No one understand how i feel deep down inside,
Everything's just going downhill, one by one.
I'm really really mentally TIRED.

Opportunity Cost,
I'll have to let go one impt thing for another.
Can i?

2009-06-16T21:24:00.004+08:00

Half empty glass,

I had a really terrible night yesterday.
I really wished i could stepped out of the house and go somewhere far away from what i have to face.

I went Sentosa today, not for meeting but for some real break from everything. The weather's been up and down too, but i don't know why ended up we'll get sunburnt still. Anyway, we were volleyball-ing, play monkey, dodge ball, and spend time sitting by the seaside talking and munching away with chips. Packed up, and went over to Iluma to show twin and belle the new toy-catching machines we went past a week ago. Spent an hour there before heading for dinner, oh and we went NYDC for the student special set. Elephanchino's still the best and the biggest one! Had long train ride back home with long chats with Baby, twin and belle today.

Caiyan says,
Sometimes it tend to be hurtful.
And it'll be a long road of endurance i'll have to go through.

2009-06-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

My soul's feeling heavy,

A good thing, I'm qutting my job soon.

I went back to school today, together with the rest of clique and the other JA peepos. They balled for the whole morning, while i sit and stare at them. We went ahead with self entertaining games while waiting for those late peepos. It went from Tempo, to Yukiyaki sth game, to Polar bear. We did everything in prep for the camp, including trying out those games. Mac for late late lunch in school, chit-chatted..... and back home.

I have not been feeling good these days.
Down to the max.

2009-06-13T22:34:00.009+08:00

Break the silence inside the heart,

Happy 13th Birthday, my dearest cousin.
Despite quarrels, "hatred" sometimes, i still luv you.

Yesterday, it's my last CT paper. I hated the exam venue so much, y'know friggin hot in there and i can easily lose my concentration. But it's over, spell happy. Average paper, i did my best already. Lunched at Cavana with Baby, and we head over to JMC for my eye checkup. Went through several tests, and i gladly lose 70% of my vision for close to 2 hours. Wm for Bbq stuffs with clique, Simin and Peisim and over to Elina's house. Short and sweet gathering, except i don know why i became so down all of a sudden.

Thankyou twin! :)

Today was family day, and it's been long since we got together.

Aunt treated all of us Pizzahut for lunch, and next we headed over for a swim. It's a pity though, because Mr Sun's not out today. Mac, and over to get cake for the birthday girl. We took a long time to find nice one, and last resort to the Icing Room. I specially designed the cake for her, though i really screwed some parts up. Long talk in the evening, and i got really terrible inside. I feeeeeel super emotional. Catch up with cousins, cake cutting and homed.

There's times when i really wonder,
Wonder where my heart's leading me to.
I want to know what i should really do.
Why do i feel so tired again?

2009-06-10T21:39:00.004+08:00

Stay Close, Don't Go

I lost all my links with one sudden click ):
Tag me with your links and i'll link back when im not lazy.

Maec paper yesterday, and it spells Doom for that paper. I could flip through the paper so many times without getting any inspirations into my head. Pray hard for a miracle, at least for the little hardwork i've put in studying for it.

I got a break out of books after paper. Baby came over to school to pick me, and we went to SUMO house for lunch. First time there, and it was average but affordable. Headed down to Bugis, and first stop was down to the arcade for the soft-toy machine. And we couldn't get that BIG stitch after all. Iluma next, and it's got the COOLEST soft-toy machine okayyyy, i got one tiny pink stitch after a long time. HAHAHAH. Bugis street, window shopped and i shall find one fine day to spend on clothes. MOF for desserts, and home sweet home.

It's books day today.
Westmall mac to mug with Babyyyy, and i've managed to complete 3/4 of my Blaw.
I've got a new nerd friend,

2009-06-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

The dim lights,

2 more to go,
And MAEC's tmr but im not studying hard.
Mugged in Dunearn today, hell warm w/o aircon.
Lunched, watched BOF, Mugged, D&D Games.

TADAHHH, my twinnnnn! :)

I shall be back to my noteeees!
Goodnight!

2009-06-07T21:56:00.004+08:00

Happy 11th Month Baby! xo.
I Luv you v much(:

AMKHub with Baby today,
Pepper Lunch, Arcade, Shopped.

And lastly, Andersens Icecreammmm!:)

2009-06-06T21:23:00.003+08:00

Can it stay this way for long,

Got up really early today morning,

And went to school for POA CT Paper.
It's freezing cold and tense in the conv centre okayyyyy!

Anw, I went brunch with Rebecca, Weixin &Sijia.
And for a while, we all became super high.
Neoprint session after like 2 years, it's fun i admit (:
Homed, packed and off to meet cliques to muggggggggg.
Dearest Sitting Partner was here today tooooo, xo.

We went from Mac, to Np, to Railmall to study.
Mad-ness!

I'm missing this kuku right now!:)

2009-06-03T22:06:00.002+08:00

I need that little strength,

It's been really terrible for the past few days,
My head's getting heavier,
My body's like giving away, in other words I feel SICK!
I hate this feeling, it's draining me down to the max.

I stayed back for POA extra lessons today,
I'm so relieved i understand almost everything already.
And, i missed Sapphire gathering today.
It's the saddest thing y'know ):

In conclusion, I don't feel good now.

2009-06-01T21:47:00.007+08:00

Monday blues,

Hello June,
And it spells fun for the 2 weeks of holidays soon.
I've got tons i wanna do, and also give myself a break.

Anyway, I hate the weather these days.
I wonder if it's my own body, or the weather,
I feel sick, and my body's like giving away.

I had a bad morning on my way to school,
Then presentation for DSS, i screwed up my part somehow.
I get to lunched with my classmates after one week! :)
Belle and Baby came to look for me after my lessons,
They're damn sweeeet!
Anw, we headed down to Lot1 after i settled my stuffs,
Met Mavis, and we had dinner over at MOS.
The food is really _____!!!!!!!!!

MOF for dessert, filling and super uber nice okayyyy!

Arcade for Daytona, and i self declared myself as Noob! :)

Oh, i got a twin sister today lah! *grins!

My luvvvv-s

My 4year buddyyyyy!:)

2009-05-31T22:05:00.002+08:00

Round and round the circle,

I've school tomorrow,

And the rest's having holidays already.
But i get to see my lovely girls! :)

Anyway, i had a fulfiling saturday yesterday.
I finished work, studied POA, understand POA,

And i met my Dearest Sitting Partner at Wm too,
It's been so so long since we got together!
Walked around, MAC for icecreamm, and long chats!

I can't wait for the 2 weeks breakkkkk!

2009-05-29T21:19:00.003+08:00

Fill me in with some wisdom/love,

E-learning week's just gone like that.
I've rushed through assignments, quiz, projects.
Putting disappointments aside, I finished almost everything.
Screw DSS, i hate hate hate figuring out those things ):

Common Test's about a week or two from now,
Have i started on anything, or remember anything i learnt?
I hope i will, and i must!

Thankyou my dearest sitting partner!
Caiyan luv you many many!

I was webcamming with Baby, and then Rebecca just now.
Yes, i really havent' been listening to the so-called skills.
Met Baby at Westmall, had our very late lunch.
OH, and he got his Ipod touch already lah! Tsk.
Walked around, and met with Belle and Mavis for a while,
Headed back home.

2009-05-27T21:30:00.007+08:00

Bad times,

If only when someone or somebody,

stands in my shoes or trying being me,

Then only will be someone who will understand how i feel.

Why must everything be put upon me?

I feel my temper getting worse and worst!
I seemed to have lost myself, again.
Why do i get so tired at times?

I don't like how life is now.
It's just sooooo draggy, and ****-up!
Such as asssssssssssssssss! ):
I try not to let it get over me, but still .....

I should sleep now, perhaps.

2009-05-27T21:09:00.008+08:00

Good times,

Happy 14th Birthday Mavis!

I finally took a break out today.
West Coast, CSC for Bbq.

I enjoyed the morning breeze THIS much!
Luv this guy above THIS THIS much too.

@ Treehouse, but with lots of mosquitoes! :)

2009-05-26T20:39:00.004+08:00

Sour then sweeter,

Elearning week,

I've been piled up with work project work project.

I failed my Equiz for POA, Im such an ass :/

5% just flew right past my eyes, argh.

It's Dunearn day today,

And i've got tuesday blues cuz of the rainy day.

Caiyan need to buck up!!!!!!!!

2009-05-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

The very old song replays,

People do change, drastically.
Dont they?
I feel it somehow, i don't know why.

Work's been such as ass today.
So much for being slow in calculations.
:/

2009-05-22T22:04:00.007+08:00

It doesn't take much to learn,

when the bridges that you burn,

Leave you stranded feeling alone

I'm so into this song, really lovely!

It's a Friday, and spell Happy cuz there won't be school next week due to Elearning week! But the most dreadful thing is I still got to get back to school with my dearest classmates for projects and LMS lesson on Friday. Damn damn damn! I've been trying hard to be on track, esp with Macro and POA, serious irritating y'know. School's great, almost everyday. I get to meet my lovely gfs and catch up with them during breaks.

Anw, my Saturday's taken away tomrrow.
JA Meeting, Work, Baby's house! :)

I need to get back on my books.
Dear Macro, please befriend me okay!

2009-05-21T22:45:00.001+08:00

Stucked,

Macro, macro, macro.

Please get into my head will you?

I've got tons to do.

2009-05-18T22:29:00.003+08:00

A little bit of these and that,

I miss them, suddenly.
PE Office seemed so quiet without the 2 of them.

During school, BMGT Tutorial.

Lastly,
Happy Birthday Dearest Xiuyu! :)

I'm starting to dread POA, seriously.

2009-05-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

It shouldn't go this way,

TB 26!
Credits: Rebecca's blog! :)

I held back every emotions i got on the way out.
Till, i really broke down.
Thankyou alotalotalot Dearest Sitting Partner!

Seoul Garden with dearest Clique,
And some ice breaking games in the evening.

Luvyou dear! Sorry.

2009-05-15T20:46:00.004+08:00

TB26!

My bedsheets got stained wet again.
I'm not feeling any better right now.
Why?

So many mixed up thoughts.
DEAREST SITTING PARTNER??!! ):

2009-05-13T20:39:00.004+08:00

School day,

My beloved classmates!

Reb,Jas,WongYi

Happy Birthday Kimmura!
I'm sosososo sorry to be the last! ):

School's been great, everyday.
OurSpace with classmates in the morning,
Wongyi showed me the friggin SHOCKING video, like omg!Lessons in the afternoon, and Lot1 to meet B.

2009-05-11T18:17:00.003+08:00

I've run out of the words to say,

I got bored during DSS Workshop today.
And I played with Weixin's specs, damn cool y'know.

I got a bad headache for the whole day.
I hated the long rainy days today.
I got my first Blaw test today, lucks man.
Lastly, I luv my classmates :)

I got sort of emotional again, idk why.
I have so many doubts on my POA.
I've got so many things to do, so little time.
I've got so many thoughts in mind, i couldn't explain.

2009-05-10T20:45:00.004+08:00

Keeps draining away,

It fills my day. Coussy Luv.

Happy Mummy's Day!

I've got BLaw test tmrw.
I've got a long week ahead again.
I think 24 hours is not enough for me.

Bye.

2009-05-07T21:05:00.005+08:00

Peace out,

Happy 10th Month Baby!

It's a really bad morning today. I don't know what's going on, but i just feel the eager to leave the house as soon as i got out of bed. I threw my temper, took my bag, slammed the door and went out like 15 mins early for school. I didn't like that feeling, and i really feel like throwing everything out. I walked into Mac, open up the lappy and stared into the screen for a minute. And finally, i boarded the bus when i reached the bus stop. It's unusually un-packed, and several thoughts went through my mind on the journey to school. I finally got some peace in my heart.

Got something to eat, and I met Zhisheng on the way to the atrium. And he dragged me to take temperature with him but i runned away while he went through the queue. Walked up to LT, and some of my classmates were already there. It's 8.45am. Anyway, haven't been reallypaying attention to the lectures today. It's guilty, y'know. But i swear, i'll listen at least 99.9% next week! :)

Headed over to meet B at BPP, and we had a hard time deciding on what to get for dinner. And ended up, we went to foodcourt for my Jap food! Shopped around, and bused down to my place area. Took a stroll, and we both headed for home.

2009-05-06T21:15:00.003+08:00

What's on next?

Suddenly,
I feel the journey home today longer than usual.
I feel the tired-ness in me getting deeper and deeper.
I feel everything's straining on me getting heavier.

I kept to myself for the whole evening.
Walking back, songs shuffle on the player.
Empty.

However, class's been great these days.
And esp with great lovely people

Top(Left-Right):
Rachel(crazygirl, facebook fan!),
Yiling(Addicted to her Iphone, laugh randomly!)
Sijia(another crazy girl, and LOUD!)

Bottom(Left-Right):
WeiXin(Super nice girl, lovely smiles too!)
Rebecca(Nice girl, likes to EAT!)
Jasmine(Another nice girl, my dss best mate!)

I feel weak.

2009-05-05T22:54:00.002+08:00

Rants,

I've got a sudden urge to find Dearest Sitting Partner,
And so Me and B went over to her house on Sunday.
Strolled along the park, sat under the shelter, and long chats.
I wished secondary school life hasn't ended so fast, really.

Projects and Tutorial's been piling up,
And Ive been trying to stay awake and attentive during lectures.
But, sadly i didn't for the last part of Law lecture today.
Anyway, got back to school to meet the girls for DSS project.
Stucked, and still stucked with it. Damn!
We went down to Pizza Hut for lunch today, Curry Zazzle! :)

Laughings, and had a great chat with them.

I had been having headache for the whole day.
Went to study with B after school today.
And, i'm starting to feel STRESS! :/

2009-05-02T23:20:00.002+08:00

Definitely maybe,

Happy Birthday my dearest Germaine! :)

Lots of (L)(L)(L)

I got up really early in the morning, out of a dream.
And something really mad happen.
Headed over to BPP to meet the girls, and caught up a lil.
Got the super tiny cake, and walked over to surprise Germaine.
Had a mini celebration, camwhore session, and chit-chatting time.

(L)(L)(L)

It's been really long time...
The usual people, laughters,

2009-05-01T22:11:00.002+08:00

The sun comes up and the blinds go down,

I've got back to work again.
It's a day out on a public holiday today.

Town. CoffeeBean.Eat.Camwhore.Chit-chatting.Makan,
with B, Harrison and Andrew in the afternoon.
And over to Esplanade for the pretty scenery in the evening.

I've got tons more of pictures,
AFTER being addicted with Harri's macbook webcam!

Yesterdays,

My beloved classmates! :)

Sijia's funny actions! :D

BELLEEEE! :D

Grasshoppers!

My Beloved Dearest Sitting Partner! :D

2009-04-30T22:37:00.003+08:00

It's the heart that's afraid of breaking,

Rainy Days, Sunny Day.
I hated this weather changes to the max.
Today, I missed 2 buses to school.
And I walked in the big rain with Jim and ShunJie.
.
.
Wet!

I've been trying to catch up during lectures today.
And also, figuring out the damn Excel.
We all closed our ear away from Bmgt lecture too.
Eat.Webcam.Laughed.MSN-ing.
( I feel guilty, but _________________ )

Caught up with Liyuan today!
Had our early dinner at Subway tgt with B.
Studying session next.

Dearest Sitting Partner! I want to be out with you soon again!

Update peektureeees tmrw!
Goodnight.

2009-04-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

Rainy Days,

For one thing i know, I'm still stucked in between.
It's drawing close to May, and I haven decided anything.
Gah!:/

School's been fine, except the rainy day today.
Sijia and me walked in the rain to reach Blk72 for class.
Bmgt and Blaw today, total blank-ness.
I've been wondering somewhere else during lecture, idk why.
And ended up ...

Camera shy! :D

Floorball Orientation today.
Together with Germaine, Liyuan and Shuee.
Awesome! We had trainings and mini competition too! :)
Oh, Germaine and her "own goal" shoot.
Walked down to BtTimah Hawker Centre tgt, and dinner!

Okay, Im still stucked with PBL on excel.
I can go die now. Nights! :)

2009-04-27T20:49:00.004+08:00

A hole inside my heart,

It's been a week of school.
Rushing up and down everyday for lectures/tutorials.
I met my classmates today, lovely people.

School, and off to meet Love at Westmall.
We got drinks/food, & headed for CSC to find Mavis&Belle.
Shopped around when everything's settled.
I loved the poolside view to the maxxxxxxxxx! :)
And, Floorball orientation tmrw!

I've had a really empty and troubled mind past few days. I've been stucked between this and that.I dont know what's the next step i should take. I'm tired, mentally and physically. Please, I want to stay strong.

I've got a sudden liking for old songs.
I miss my dear clique too :/

2009-04-24T22:29:00.002+08:00

Just one moment,

I got this today from B. (L)(L)

I had tutorials in the noon,
Following early dinner with B, caught up with Belle & Mavis
We were entertaining ourselves at B house.

I'm all drained out with this freaking weather :/

2009-04-22T22:02:00.002+08:00

I've seen the picture's that written over your face,

Happy 17th Birthday Shin Huey! (L)

Poly started a few days ago, and had been hopping around campus settling stuffs and buying of the thick textbooks for the sem. Oh, I'm really a dumbhole to missed my first workshop on the first day of school. It's been days of lectures, and i can't help but fall asleep in the middle of lectures. Been hanging around with new mates, and my dear old school mates for the first few days. School's been exciting, for the time being but looking back i still missed Dunearn life a little, when everything's so planned for us!

Im off lessons today! :)
Anyway, have been back for relief in Dunearn for the past 2 days. It's been rather plain, and i've been roaming around aimlessly for a long period for the day. Seeing the classroom scenes, it reminded me of the old school days esp during the exam period when everyone's slogging real hard for the exams.

I caught up with my dear Brothers today for lunch in the afternoon! It's a long and great catch up after such a long time since i ever saw them. And they're still with their usual styles, jokes and everything. Lunched, crapped, walked around, library and over to meet Baby, Harrison, and ChingChing at Mac. Ohyes, they showed me something that's like ________. And we got so engrossed with Harri's lappy and played with Photo Booth, making real dumb faces. Left for dinner with Baby, Mavis, Belle at Lot1, while hunting for big big softtoys!

All of a sudden, i got back the same old feelings.
The good old times replayed back with the music.

2009-04-22T21:59:00.002+08:00

you, you, and just you.

Ant's twin sister! :)

MaoMao!

2009-04-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

New start,

It's 19th April.
After such a long break, school's starting tmrw.
First lecture at 11am, excited? I think, yes! :)

Anyway, Happy Belated Birthday Liyuan!
Birthday celebrations yesterday, BBq and games all night.
Speech Day yesterday, a total different feeling i got.
JA Term Meeting in the noon.

I just felt, it wasn't the same anymore.

2009-04-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

Like a hard candy with a surprise center,

Bad weather these few days,
And there goes my mood swings too.

Anw, Np with Weijian yesterday for our shirts.
Met up with Dearest and Ant for lunch at KFC.
Bugis Street, Shopping, Dinner, NYDC for drinks &gossips.
Trained home, and im dead on the bed.

Work's been friggin ~~assssssss~~ recently.
And you, typical attitude!

2009-04-13T23:29:00.001+08:00

I'm sick and tired of everything, and myself.
Should i close down this blog?

2009-04-11T21:39:00.005+08:00

BAOC'09

Sensuale Jazz 2! (w/o Joyce)

The guys: Abraham, Shunjie, Jim, CK

Credits to Xiuyu, Wenbin, Avalyn :)

2009-04-11T21:21:00.003+08:00

Alright JUNHAO is here to post for that lazy girl! LOL! She ask me to post anything so i shall post anything...

Erm... Anyway nothing much. Yesterday is Good Friday but she still got work. In the morning she went out for breakfast with her uncle they all, then went to batok MAC and met up with me, Ant and WeiJian. Then go home and she change and we went over to her house's mac there to slack. Then she go work. After work i picked her up and i got her a MP4 which she wanted. Hope she likes it! Then home.

Today she work from 1-5, then she accompany me for dinner, then after that home. Aiyo duno what to post liao. HAHA! :D

2009-04-09T22:33:00.003+08:00

Dancing in the moonlight,

BAOC'09 ended on a nice note!
Sensuale Jazz's the best OG Group of BAOC! :)

All the different colours settled down in the CC,
And it went on with cheering, dancing, games, laughter, high-ness.
Finale, video playbacks, etc...

Lastly, i've found really nice friends/classmates too.

Sensuale Jazz 2!

2009-04-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

Beginnings,

It's been a rather fufiling one throughout the 2 days of BAOC, and the spirit from every group was really great, unlike those i've ever experience in my past camps! I mingled my way through the Maroon Red people from Sensuale Jazz, which's my big group for the camp! Jazz 2 has a really nice bunch of people, with my friendly SCs -- CK, Wenbin, Oliver, JianFei, Shi Lin, and one other guy which i don know what's his name! :) My bunch of group mates: Joyce, Rachel, SiuYu, ShuTing, Eveline, Abraham, Marcus(2ndHarrison's style), Jim, JunAn, SoonJie who's been super funny, caring, and HIGH!

Anyway, it's been endless Cheering, icebreaker games, and getting to know your groupmates on the first day! We ended off with the Flag Design for Sensuale Jazz when each sub group got together to get the pieces of the flag done together! It's really great accomplishment! (: Today started off with a long dialogue sessions with the BA seniors, and long long amazing race for the whole day! From one station to another, we've been cheering out tgt, and best part completing our task as one! Bimbos and Himbos alliance won the cheering competition for the day! :)

It's the finale of BAOC tomorrow, pretty much looking forward!

2009-04-07T21:26:00.003+08:00

Happy 9th Month, Baby! xoxos
BAOC's awesome! :D

2009-04-06T20:35:00.002+08:00

I caught myself stucked nowhere,

Felt like shit for the past few days, upsetting myself and you. Sorry, and thanks for making every effort to make it up although i know i had been rather misundestanding. It'd all been alright, so keep smiling like today kay! Hugs!:)

Anyway, kept myself at home and work for the weekend. I hated the rainy days this few days, dampen my mood and everything. Oh, I caught up with Mr Wee at work on Sunday. It's a rather short and nice chat with him though! I was playing webcam with Baby last night, and god he's damn irritating!

Today's Lotone, pizzahut, Wm, Shopping, CoffeeBean day with Baby.

2009-04-04T15:14:00.004+08:00

Definitely maybe,

The week ended off not really well,
I seemed to be indulged into work and nothing else.
Weekend's mundane, with no one and an empty room.
I've got a sudden crave for McFlurry!

.
.
.

Rainy day, gloomy mood.
I find it harder and harder to understand anymore.

2009-04-03T18:53:00.005+08:00

Hectic,

I slept at 12am, got up at 7am.
Got called back to school for relief,
And rushed off again straight after lessons.

I missed breakfast, & lunch.
Suddenly i felt the whole world spinning, terrible feeling!
For once, i got really sick and pissed off.

2 more weeks till new school term!
And it's BAOC next week! :)

2009-03-31T08:45:00.001+08:00

Countless of pages forward,

Gaming session with our lappys!

I miss them all.

2009-03-28T21:20:00.003+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,

April's drawing in a few days time, and I'm finally getting back on track to the studying and mugging life I've lost for the past long few months. Pretty much looking forward for the new term though i cant imagine how it'll be like. Maybe because Im tired of the work life now, very much wanting to leave and take a break.

Work's been rather mundane nowadays, and i guessed I'm more to the side of dreading work life instead of enjoying it. Long working hours, typical attitude and the many things going on here and there. Oh, and relief's been a blast. I finally got a taste of how our teachers really have to put up with different sorts of student. But it's been great to be able to play lil games with them, or even them sharing things with you. One thing i hated, attitude.

Anyway, it's Sports Day in Dunearn yesterday. Left work earlier than usual, and before that I was really wishing time would fly fast enough though. Changed and rushed down to school to help with the stuffs for the event. Had been walking aimlessly around for the whole afternoon, prolly don't know what i should do. And also just helping out a lil with the reception area, watching the cheer&dance performance, taking snapshots around, catching up with ex classmates and teachers. Had dinner tgt with the JAs and teachers, caught up with each other, long meeting sessions, and homed finally.

Had a terrible night after i got home. Probably I was getting real tired of things going on around, and no one, not even them understands a single bit of me except all the hurtful words from their mouths. Tossed and turned till the late night before i could finally get into some sleep. Shattered heart, empty mind.

I got out of the house in the noon, prolly can't stand the whole atmosphere i'm getting at home though i was really tired mentally. Met up with Love and we changed our mind for IMM instead of West Coast. Shopped the whole entire mall, walking aimlessly to waste time, and i was craving for food, and more food for the whole day. Best ah, i see FATS appearing already. Dearest Sitting Partner's busy with school, didnt managed to see her this week though.

Have they been understanding me all these while? Or more towards finding faults on me, determining im getting bad with my attitude and my life. I've changed, so did you guys. Ever thought of listening to my feelings before, or just only assume more and more things which i just cant defend myself with. Do i still feel that warmth being in the family, probably it's down a huge percentages. Do i even have the chance to explain myself, do i have the rights for anything? Do they give a thought of how i would feel, shooting me with endless stuffs that comes to your mind? Disappointment was what you all think i gave, naggings was what i should deserve? The words you all said you cared, i can't feel it at all. I'm just getting tired of all these. What's family love all about?

I love&miss you kay, Mr Lit Jun Hao!

2009-03-26T12:50:00.000+08:00

Quiz (By Genevieve loveee!)

Rules and regulation of the tag ;
All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog.Write the names of 16 friends you can think of in your head.And then answer the questions,Say you're guessing if you don't know,But at least guess on all of them.After doing this, tag your 21 unlucky friends to do the same.

1. Junhao
2. Qianmei
3. Isabelle
4. Andrew
5. Weijian
6. Kimmura
7. Liyuan
8. Sarah
9. Genevieve
10. Fenghao
11. Javier
12. Harrison
13. Monica
14. Germaine
15. Elina
16. Peiyu
17. Xinhui
18, Qingping
19. Shawn
20. WeeChee
21. Eddie

1. How did you meet 7?
When i was in Sec2, we're in same class! :)

2. What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
I won't have such a good friend now!

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
HAHAHA. Unless they're gays. Ops!

4. Have you seen 17 cried?
Nope.

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
Hmm good question, i can't imagine either.

6. Do you think 11 is attractive?
AHEM. I dont know how to say! To a small extent?

7. What is 2's favourite colour?
ORANGE! If im not wrong? LOL!:D

8. When was the last time you talked to 9?
Seconds ago! :)

9. What language does 8 speaks?
English, Chinese? Nehneh language! :D

10. Who is 13 going out with?
I don know, her gfs?

11. Would you ever date 17 ?
Heh, no i won't lah dey!

12. Where does 18 live?
Teckwhye area?

13. What is the best thing about 4?
His helpfulness and JOKES!

14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ?
HELLO AH PEK!

15. What is the best thing about 20?
My beloved kor, who's HELPFUL! :)

16. Have you ever kiss 2?
Hmm i shall consider that! Ops!

17. What is the best memory you have of 5?
He's the "irritating" KOR since my sec1 life in Dunearn!

18. When's the next time you're going to see 4?
Later? :D

19. How is 7 different from 6?
One guy and one girl lah dey! Yuan's prettier! :D

20. Is 2 pretty?
Of course,my dearest sitting partner!

21. What was your 1st impression of 15?
(KennethSin)No comments to this.

22. How did you meet 3?
Since my Dunearn Life started! :D

23. Is 15 your best friend?
Yes!

24. Do you hate 12?
No, he's my good friend though

25. Have you seen 18 in the last month?
Nah, haven seen her for long already!

26. When was the last time you saw 16?
Last year?

27. Have you been to 5's house?
Nah!

28. When's the next time you'll see 10?
I don know, by chance? LOL!:D

29. Are you close to 11?
Yup, my brother!

30. Have you been to the movies with 4?
yup of course!

31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
Nope! :D

32. Would you give 19 a hug?
Not really lah!

33. When have you lied to 3?
I don think so lah! :D

34. Is 11 good at socializing?
Well, to a certain extent? LOL!

35. Do you know a secret about 8?
Nah! She din tell me luh! :)

36. Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
Strangers!

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9?
She's a really nice girl who's around to cheer me up when im down

38. what's the worst thing about 6?
Hmm sometimes his attitude bah.

39. Have you even had a crush on 12?
Nope!

40. How long have you known 2?
2 years plus to be exact! :D

41. Does 11 have any girlfriend/boyfriend?
Nope, i think.

42. Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
No i won't!

43. Has 21 meet your parents?
Nope!

44. How did you meet 11?
In Dunearn! :)

45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
Nah!

46. Do you live close to 7?
yup, quite!

47. What is 8's favourite food?
I don know eh! LOL! Gummys uh?

48. What kind of car does 1 have?
He don have car yet! LOL! Only bicycle!

49. Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
Nope!

50. If you give 14 a $100 , What would she/he spend it on?
Shopping for clothes and stuffs? LOL!

2009-03-24T20:35:00.005+08:00

Quiz, (By FengHao)

1.Beside your lips, wher's th fav spot to get kissed ?
Hmm i never thought of that. Tsk.

2.How do you felt when you woke tis morn ?
Really sleepy and reluctant to go for work.

3.Who's th last human i took photo wif ?
My dearest Clique.

4.Would you considered yourself to be spoiled ?
Hmm to a large extent. Hahahah! :)

5.Would you ever donate blood ?
I'll probably faint before i even donate it.

6.Have you had a best fren who was th oppo sex ?
Hmm of course! :D

7.Do you want someone dead ?
Hmm, yes for one particular person.

8.Wad does your last text msg say ?
Hmm, i forgot. But it's to LOVEEEEE! :)

9.Wad are you thinking ryte now ?
I am thinking for changing my phone!

10.Do you wish someone to be wif you ryte now ?
Hmm yes, and always too.

11.Wad's th time you go to bed last nyte ?
1130pm

12.Where do you buy th t-shirt you are wearing now ?
Hmm my aunt?

13.Is someone on your mind ryte now ?
Hmm yes!

14.Who was th last person to msg you ?
JunHao

-10 'victims' to do this quiz.
1.JunHao
2.Sarah
3.Genevieve
4.Liyuan
5.Qianmei
6.Isabelle
7.Javier
8.Andrew
9.Harrison
10.Venessa

15.Who is '2' having a relationship wif ?
Hmm i don know! :)

16.Is '3' a male or female ?
Pretty lady!

17.If '7' & '10' gets together, isit good ?
They don't even know each other! & It's impossible!

18.What is '1' studying ?
He finished his studies! :D

19.When was th last time you chat wif dem ?
Few days ago?

20.Is '4' single ?
Hmm yes!

21.Say something abt '2'
My favourite junior! Horny techno! :D

22.Wad do you think abt '3' & '6' together ?
Hmm not possible though!

23.Describe '9'
TALL! Photographer, crapper, cyclist, FUN! :D

24.Wad will you do if '6' & '7' fight ?
Probably Isabelle will win! :D

25.Do you lyk '8' ?
Hmm i like him as my very very good buddy and clique! :D

2009-03-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

Rainbows,

I've been pondering between work issues for the past few days. Had been rather enjoying work for the past few months, but i hated the things and even the attitude i got inside during work. Somehow i got really tired of working and crave for a break really soon.

Anyway, I've got back to school to help out with Infocomm. The camp's rescheduled, and it's changed to Amazing Race instead. I was rather pleased with their effort, but there's really lots and lots they need to learn and even make it better. I promised myself i won't stepped in, and am relieved that everything went on well with lil bit here and there haywired. Thankyou Love, my chaffeur for the day! :) Cliques came back for lunch tgt, and off for work in the afternoon.

Yesterday, i stayed at home for the whole morning and flipping around with books and got stucked to the television before work. Went to Lot1 with cousin after work, and we went shopping for clothes. Oh, and we got really engrossed with supermarket shopping too! :) Headed back to Westmall for dinner and got back home. Anyway, we caught a view of the rainbow on our way back.

Had morning shift today, and I got really pissed off with the TL and her attitude. Forget about the details, i was wishing time had flown faster for work to end. Lunched, and off to Love's house. Cliques came over with food, and lappys. We got addicted to Viwawa, and was gaming for the whole afternoon. Dinner, dessert, gossips, and GAMES. We laughed our ass off during the Husband&Wife game. Camwhored, teevee, and homed tgt!

I miss school, all of a sudden.
I miss everyone, all of a sudden.
I miss you too dear.

I think the days will be better, soon.

2009-03-19T16:01:00.004+08:00

Caught in the middle,

Time don't seemed right on our side now,
I've been contradicting with my feelings recently.

Im losing my faith.

(Edited)

Sec2Camp Group 8. ( JA's blog)

I couldn't find the right track of directions.

2009-03-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

Reflections,

After all, i guessed i poured out everything that i had been thinking or even wanted to point out for the past 3 days. Had a long phone chat with L last night and somehow we got the things all sorted out from the very beginning of how it started. For some reasons, some held back stuffs, everything don't seemed right everytime. Shall not elaborate the details, but it was a worthwhile chat! Now, it only left the final decision that is supposed to be made.

Anyway, had 3 days off from work due to the ICC Camp's that is postponed to May instead. Maybe it's meant for my well deserved rest after working for so long. Had to get up early in the morning, and the weather isn't really good these days. Rainy seasons really turns my mood for everything down. Took the Sec 4s for Star 2 Kayaking in the morning. Caught up with some familiar coach from last year. Oh, and the feelings of all the Sapphires going for kayaking tgt came back to my mind too. Headed off for Kallang Leisure Park with Mr Tan while waiting for lunch break from the group. Games at Starbucks and Subway for breakfast! :) Drove around in his car and off for Dunearn's bball match in the afternoon. Got back to Sea Centre to wait for them while we slacked all the way in the car. Camwhored with Webcam, strolled around the Sea Centre, and a long way back to school due to the damn long traffic jam.

Thing's been rather peaceful for the time being. Thank God!

DEAREST SITTING PARNER! I MISS YOU! ):

2009-03-16T21:10:00.000+08:00

Tags Replies,

Amy: HELLO! :D
QIANMEI: Retain not bad ah! Can sit tgt again! ops! :)
♥ MONICA: I'll see if i can go back when school reopen! I miss you!
angin: tsk, techno-ness neh! :D you ah, skip meals! box you uh!
Kaien: KAIENNNNN! :D
QIANMEI: I share share with you! HOHOO!
Genevieve: I gave you one, but not real! Awww! :D
angin: Heh, and i finally get to see you, smile at you, talk to you! dots!
jaslyn: I wrote wrongly. Ops! :D where got cute lah dey!
Genevieve: Loveeeeee! xo
Jaslyn: Heh hello! Nights now le heh! :D
Angin: Nehnehenehneh!
Kaien: HELLOOOO! Wo hai hao, ni hao mah? Hahahah! :)

2009-03-15T11:35:00.002+08:00

Experiences,

The past few days, had been really tiring and stressed out i think. I bet all of us didn't managed to get enough rest for the 3 days of Sec2 Camp. These 3 days, there's alot to go through, to see, to know and to realise. Overall, there's still a little bit of satisfaction.

Took over Group8 for the whole camp, and i missed out the earlier part of their ice breakers to know all their names. They were really nice people in there, with different characters. Some were in their own world, some were really into the activities. Kayaking, Leadership trainings for their first day. Abseiling, High Rope Elements, Zipline for the second day. Perhaps up to the second day, the gap between them were still really wide. Performance was great, though they didn't managed to cooperate or get anything but i really loved their singing! :)

There's been alot of conflicts, in fact different perspectives from different people throughout the 3 days. And somehow, the open-ness between us weren't really there yet. In fact, the experiences gained from this camp is really enriching. Shall skipped all the details of what really happened.

2009-03-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

All of the streets were alone with you,

Happy 8th Month (L)

I guessed I've been sleeping less than 8 hours/day these few weeks, and it's really draining all my energy out. Had morning shift in the morning, and the damn crowed really tires me out. The only thing I'm looking forward to, it's off work time!

Work aside, was out for the day with love. Bused down over to JP, and that kuku insisted Long John's closed down. Owned again, lunched there and the past came running over and over again. I dont know why, i kept laughing over what they did during one of their cycling trips. Got tickets for Marley and Me, and it's friggin nice and touching. Man, first time i ever cried over a movie.

(L)(L)

Down to IMM and got my things for cousin. Secret Recipe for dinner, there goes the surprise that's planned. Celine's the helper for the night, tsk their eye contact speak the whole scene lah dey! Light dinner, and the last part came the cake and the SUNFLOWERS! I guessed I didnt know how to react then! Hahahah! :) Thanks loveeee, oh and CELINE!

2009-03-06T23:38:00.009+08:00

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,

Two days of work, spell H-A-P-P-Y
But i missed my lovely colleagues, TLs, my dear counter!

Went over to meet Love at Lot1 in the morning,
Shopped around, and off for Udon session!!!!
Great accomplishment cooking it till it tasted right,
though it gets a lil messy here and there.
Here's the best part while we're leaving for school.
(L): Remember to eat your noodles ah, not i cook one.
(L)'s mom: I know you won't so good one.
Tsk, I won today & someone got owned! :)

Work's been great too, for today.

2009-03-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

If i could catch a million rides,

I did something really bad today.
Skip that part, I was back in school in the morning.
At the end of the day, there's only one word - Tired.
I guessed I've learnt and realise somethings during relief.

A lil side track, the sunburnt's really killing me again.
Late lunch with crazy people today (D, H, R, A)
Kfc, Popular, Harvey Norman, Coffee Bean @ WM.
A very long time since i laughed so much with those jokes.

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou, loveee.

2009-03-03T22:13:00.001+08:00

Lead her up the stairwell,

Pretty much of hectic over @ work today.
I started, to realise people's character in the outside world.
Finally, i knew the word "Honesty", shan't elaborate what happened.
Rainy days, usual crowd, usual routine, sums up the day.

Knocked off early today, gladly.
Homed, changed, cabbed down to school.
I guessed I wasn't in the right sense at the moment of time.
Slacked, walked around, and waited for L to finish relief duty.
Jp for lunch, window shopped, and back.

I've got that sudden craving for books,
& also to catch Marley& Me!

2009-03-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

Tags Replies,

sarah: Im getting lazier and lazier dey! :)
JunHao: you ah? I consider consider? Hahah!
Genevieve: Hahah, npnp! Loveeeee!
Desmond: Then must sponsor me songs someday! Hohoh!
sarah: Here i am nehneh! :D
♥ MONICA: Heh! Yes i love you! (:
sabriina: Tsk, where you work? I want drown myself, wait for you save me! :D

2009-02-28T20:59:00.003+08:00

And we can get away with this tonight,

JA Meeting & Photo Taking session in the morning.
I had only 3 hours of work today, 3pm-6pm.
Stoned, watch the rain, crapped with Weiliang.
Had dinner with loveeee, non-stop nonsense from him.
Shopped around for tibits, and gone back home.

Rainy seasons turns me off, seriously.
Swimming on my off day next week, Mr Sun come out!!!

Iloveyou, D! (:

2009-02-25T23:37:00.001+08:00

I don't know what's right & what's real anymore,

25th Feb, 17th years old!

This is the pig i got from (L)
And he "pick" up for me in the arcade machine.

Anyway, worked Night shift and i just got back.
Slacked the whole day at home, facing the television.
Headed for lunch @ Pizza Hut with family,
& my sweetest cousin handmade a hp pouch for me.
I sweared I was really touched, though it's made of recycled material.
Back to Mac to meet (L), and then off for work.
Dearest Germaine came over after work to look for me.
And they got me Elmo wallet and a cake! *Awww.

(L)(L)

These are the lovely people,
Dearest clique & family, Dearest, Peiyu, Shawn Ng,
Andrew, Lawrence, Sarahnehneh, Constance, John,
Javier, Kaisian, YiQian, Qizheng, Harrison, Yijing,
Jane, Simin, Germaine, Elina, Kaien, Shuee, Xinhui,
Desmond, Regina, Chilli, ZhiQian, Ashri, Jerome,
SeowHuan, Kaijun, Sabrina, Jonathan, Sijie, Shirley,
Valerie, Peisim, Deying, Monica, Adeline,
* And anyone i missed out.

Thanks all for the wishes,
via calls/sms-es/msn/blog/facebook! :)

2009-02-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

Tags Replies,

ZhiQian: Hey happy birthday! :>
Desmond: Hehheh, one of my old time fave song! Anw, Happy B'day to your daddy too! :D
Regina.V: Thanksthanks! :>
Sarah: Thankyou nehneh! Loveeeed!
JunHao: Hahahah, young at heart can le yeah! :> You're older kuku.
♥ MONICA: Aiyer, no YUAN FEN. But only have FANG FEN! :D
♥ MONICA& Chilli: Heh, thankyou loveeee!
sarah: Nehneh updated yaw! :D

2009-02-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

Condemned,

This particular song kept playing through my mind,
Everytime my mind settled down somehow.

Finally the question is why am i still struggling?
Nothing's getting better, or maybe i dont' feel it.
No one understands my internal conflicts,
Neither can i find back the strength which's getting weaker.

Another 2 hours.

2009-02-23T21:13:00.002+08:00

A day filled with love,

Dearest Sitting Partner!!!

Treasured ones.

(L)

Bro!!!

Ant!!!

Jug sized drink! :)

The past 2 days of weekend's lovely.
Thanks my beloved family, and dearest clique.
Steamboat over at Aunt's house on Sat.
Cliques got me an Elmo cake from Polar!!! :D
Bugis, Arcade, NYDC for dinner w Elmo, Polarbear game,
And they've got me a nike bagpack!
(L)(L)(L)

Morning shift tmr, bball with clique in the afternoon!
Goodnight!

2 more days.

2009-02-23T21:01:00.000+08:00

I saw my life flash right before my very eyes,

I can't speak,
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention.
Your beauty seems so far away now.

I know i shouldn't be feeling bitter now.
But, i guessed i wasn't able to resist this feeling.

2009-02-20T23:15:00.001+08:00

It's been far away for far too long,

I know the stars are holdin you tonight.

It's Friday again, another weekend ahead.
This week's been rather lifeless, esp during work.
And I seriously was at a dreamer state @ work just now.
Whatever it is, typical customers turns me off always :)

Anyway, celebrations over at Aunt's house tmrw.
Ain't looking forward to it, i guessed.
Im some sort of mentally tired of things going on.

Ohohoh, and i got my enrolment package today.
Im looking forward to school days, real badly.

5 more days.

2009-02-18T23:23:00.003+08:00

If only,

On a lighter note, Im work-free today.
Catch up with home-life, tv, munching, drama series.

Anyway, jotted down somethings while waiting on the platform.
And, i couldn't help but think again. My usual self (!)
It just flashed back all the way back then.
Recalling what i told (L) last night, i kind of missed everything.
It's been a huge distance away, perhaps no one feels it.
The short time i wished that could stopped for a moment,
Or even slowed down back that time.

I missed it all.

In the evening, PlazaSing/Nihon Mura/Heeren/FarEast.
Now, i really dread long bus rides. (!!)

2009-02-16T20:30:00.015+08:00

There are some things in this life won't be denied,

Caught up with Senior's news on the papers today.
Upside down feelings, once again.
It reminded of the scene i sent my loved one off that day.
Dear God, Please bless Jordan from above.

The empty room feels a little colder for a moment.
I've lost all my thoughts away again, and cried inside.

And so, it's work today as usual.
This time round, with a different mood of the day.
I started to look at my customer's face and their look. Comparing them to mine, i can't figure out whether it's a good/bad one.

After all, i don't want to harbour any negative thoughts.

9 more days to the 17th b'day.
Im not feeling excited about it at all.

But there's tons of things i want to get/do.
Camera/Ipodtouch/SE C905/~~Strawberry~~/Tanning/Bag/Flipflop/
ICC Camp/Sec2Camp/Cliques gathering/WestCoast/
Elmo bday cake/Clothes/Accessories/Start school/Payday!
& OREO CHEESECAKE!
And it'll go on endless.

2009-02-15T23:24:00.006+08:00

Those thoughts are so tempting,

Somehow it's different everyday.
What's the something that's wrong somewhere.

Life's really fragile, what's gone maybe just gone forever.
Rest in peace senior!

Goodnight!

2009-02-14T22:47:00.003+08:00

That midnight song is gonna come shining through,

February 14th,
Happy Val's day (!!)

Out in the morning with my beloved grandma,
I was good enough to drag myself out of bed early today.
Anyway, accompanied her to see the doc for her leg.
Oh, and i met Qz and Wk on the way back :)

Work from 1-5pm, today's average.
That dumb guy was there teasing me again.
Anyway, homed to changed and out to meet loveee.
Trained down to Lot1 for dinner,
And that kuku told he's going to the toilet,
& He got back with one rose for me (L)
Lightings, photos, gifts, flowers over at his house.

Thankyou loveeee (L)(L)

2009-02-13T23:19:00.005+08:00

We've falled into this place,

I got up real early on a off-work day today.
Breakfast with Dearest, and he headed off himself.

Dearest Germaine came over to meet me (!)
Shopped around getting baking stuffs, and other things.
Walked back to her house, started the baking WAR.
It's really like a mess, and we really had a ___ time.
Big loveeeees to her and her lovely maid for helping! (L)(L)
The results, satisfactory but taste really really sweeeeeet!

Sec2 Camp meeting in the afternoon,
Dinner with Dearest and homed sweet home! :)

Val's day in 30 mins.
So far so good!
xo.

2009-02-11T22:06:00.002+08:00

It's not over tonight.
Had a terrible night yesterday, worst breakdown.
Now, the biggest rain's gone. (L)

I've got lots of things to undone and to get.
(!) I want a new ear piece.

2009-02-10T22:51:00.004+08:00

Mixed feelings,

My whole day started off, like ~~shit~~.
I forced myself to sleep till the late morning,
To keep me away from thinking too far away again.

Anyway, went shopping alone in the morning.
And my ear plug die out on me.
Got my things, and also my 2009 planner finally.
Headed over back to school, did some admin stuffs.
Seriously, i'm sick of going back already.

Anyway, i finally get to meet up with my beloved cliques.
And my Dearest Sitting Partner (black hair girl), after so long.
Lunched, bballed together under the hot sun.

Left alone for work, caught Desmond H. on the bus.
Short chat, and he's wondering why im not in JC.
Tsk, i wonder why myself too?

Work's such an ~~ass~~ today,
I went over early to settle my shift slots, but got screwed up.
Ended on a nice note, my sales BALANCED! :)

Im starting to lose control of my own thoughts once again.
I'm starting to wonder am i going on the right direction.
I'm starting to feel a distance again.
Anyway, shifted somewhere again.

2009-02-09T23:33:00.003+08:00

Lift those joys up to the sky,

I've thought of changing blog link again,
Or maybe shift to somewhere.
Still figuring out where should i move to next?

Also, pondering if i should be quitting my job too.
Truly speaking, i've started to love my job now already.
For some reasons or rather, i'm used to my job too.
Adding on, the people there treat me real nice
Even though sometimes, i really hate the time slot given.
Well, leave it to Fate! I still got few more weeks to think.

Anyway, work night shift today.
( I just got back from work )
The crowd's endless today, really tiring and stressed.
But my colleagues were really nice! :)
Ended up i screwed up my sales, maybe im too tired out.
Met up with Dearest in the morning after his paper,
Shopped around Wm, and cabbed back to Dss.
Settled the JA things, slacked, lunched, and homed.

Val's day in 5 days.
And im not yet done with things!

2009-02-07T22:37:00.004+08:00

Everything has got its place in time,

A long day off over at school for X-country.
It's somehow a great success in the end.
Pizza Hut for dinner with the JAs,
Ended with lots of laughter, and pictures.

Started off the day early in the morning,
I had alot of weird dreams last night, idk why too.
Helped out with the mass gathering over at Aunt's place,
Got the things from the market, helped out in the kitchen,
And back home to rest for a while while bloghopping.
Lunch at 12pm, and great catch up after so long.

Almost late to set off to meet that Kukuhead.
Tsk, i really hate the adult fare concession to the core.
Anyway, trained all the way down to Expo.
Queued up really long to get into the Nike Fair,
But we got out empty-handed (!!)
Nihon Mura at E!Hub for dinner, strolled, homed.

Happy 7th Month!

Suddenly, I miss Dearest Sitting Partner! ):
I got lots to tell you!

2009-02-05T22:47:00.004+08:00

As I paced back and forth all this time,

Suddenly, got a little sick of looking at the same old thing.
Perhaps, a little bit of change for good.

Anyway, life's been the same old routine with work revolving.
And cliques are out with their own life, esp with Jc life on track.
Somehow, still wished everything's not yet over too soon.

Just got back not long ago, catch up with Harri on his trip with the rest And they were talking abt Japan, X-country'08, etc.
Ogaeeee, and the usual "Asshole" :)

Oh, and it's pay-day yesterday.
And it spells time for me to get all my stuffs.
Few more days to the 7th :)

Dunearn's Xcountry tmrw, long day out.
Goodnight!

2009-02-03T14:20:00.003+08:00

Running through the same old emotions,

My work ended early, like finally some free time!
I'm thinking of quitting my job by end of feb, should i?
Relief teaching's such a disappointment, shall not count on it :)

My kuku overslept, and skipped school yesterday.
Tsk, blame it on him watching the soccer match the previous night.
Anyway, dragged myself out of bed at 11am. Im off from work yest! :)
Met him up, and headed down to Esplanade to finish up his tutorial.
Then we went over to Marina to window-shop, cabbed to Bugis later on. Sim Lim for the whole few hours to look for his comp ram, and shopping!
I need $$$$, few more days to pay-day!

Tags Replies,

♥ MONICA: Im heading back tmr and Friday! :) &imy!
isabelle: If only can retain lah dey! LOL. not happy :D
sarah: very sure, we're PURE innocent from the start! Hoho.
sarah: Heh, i shall see you soon alright! :D
JunHao: Poke poke poke! Box you lah dey! LOL! :)
Jane: Hey girl! Finally saw you yesterday! (: Imy too!

2009-02-01T22:20:00.004+08:00

Even forever don't seemed like long enough,

Im back wiping the dust off my dusty and mouldy blog! :)
Say bye-bye to Dearest Jan, and hello to the brand new Feb!

Anyway, posting results are out few days ago.
Didn't regretted anything, but let fate decide what's on for me.
Hello Ngee Ann poly! Im awaiting the brand new school term!

By the way, JC school life's starting tmr.
And it seemed super uber weird not attending school like the rest,
Dearest Sitting Partner and Belleeeeee's stepping in for PJC tmr.
Different lives starts tmr, how i wished we were in tgt like the past.
Ofcourse, i sure missed that kuku crab sitting beside me like last year, esp keeping those impt dates on our beautiful drawn calendar!
And awaiting for the very SLOW Belleeee to open the door for us! :)
Belleeeee's my 4year buddy, straight E2 all the way yo? Heh!
But now, no more same class! But im still counting my friendship with her.
They're gonna mug real hard really soon! I missed mugging sessions!
My very best wishes for them, and the 4SPs gg in to JCs tmr too!

Had been working at a flexible time after cny, and i can finally take little breaks along the week! These few days had been out visiting, as well as the gathering the cliques had last week. Lunched at Pizza Hut @ cck, and we went to catch The Wedding Game tgt. Dearest Sitting Partner and yuan's laughter is really contagious man! Over to yuan's house for blackjack and then to my kuku's house for another few rounds after we all head for separate ways.

K, today I got the morning shift for work AGAIN.
The stupid flu that i got is really draining my energy away,
esp with the super long crowds during weekends.
Headed back home to change, and trained down to Dearest's house.
The girls were there, on the game of Blackjack again. Watched them win, lose, laughed, eat, crap all along, & joined in the last sessions. They went off in the late evening, while both of us went to hunt for late lunch cum dinner. The "cook-of-the-day" got the luncheon meat screwed up! :) Homed in the night, and my nose's dropping off soon!

(L)

Tags Replies,

Genevieve: Hello loveeeee! :)
Genevieve: But im missing school, and dying to study alrdy! LOL.
♥ MONICA: Later we'll shy one right! I miss you lah dey!
Jane: Thanks girl! Takecare alright!
kaien: cancan, i make for you! Only you can use only! HOHO! :D
--: Free-thinker. why?
Venus: your head lah! LOL! :D
kaien: Relinked!
sarah: As long as you happy can le! :)
sarah: Nah, our batch innocent. Is juniors influence us one hor!
sarah: heh, how you know you the only lovely! :D happy cny!
sarah: Nehneh! Aiyer, i also SUPER uber long never see you le hor! :/

2009-01-28T20:35:00.001+08:00

It'll get better, I pray deeply.

Grand-Aunt's called home to be with Lord.
This afternoon, 3pm.
She left in peace, & i'll prayed hard for her.
I missed her, so badly.

2009-01-28T20:25:00.002+08:00

I could feel the weakness, every now and then.

Reunion dinner over at Aunt's house on Sunday.
House visiting the past few days,
Munching on cny goodies, playing cards.
Last night, the most terrible night ever.
I broke down for the whole night! Gah! :/

Tags Replies,

JunHao: The worst one's over. Thanks loveeee!
Genevieve: Still long to enjoy eh! I will de, ty prettyy! :)
♥ MONICA: Eh, that's my secret hor! I miss you mah! Ops! :D
sarah: but if you want, i don mind you quitting! :) our batch = innocent!
sarah: I've cheered down man! ):
sarah: ofcourse, that's when i took my loveliest class 1jade'08!
sarah: happy cny too girl! imy lah dey! Loveeeee!
QIANMEI: Havent got my pay lah dey! LOL! :)
♥ MONICA: Happy cny too girl!
Qingping: Heh, shy shy eh! Happy cny wor! Tkcre too!
kaien: Later i put you inside then you know ah! :) Happy cny!
QIANMEI: im free these few days, my dearest sitting partner! imy.

2009-01-24T22:30:00.005+08:00

Reality seemed way far from imagination,

Finally, I could no longer hold back any emotions.
Shoooooo, i hate those tears dripping down my face. Gah! :/
There's just too much ..... too much things going on nowadays.
Happy things aside, much of changes within my life i guessed?

The misunderstandings and distrust between me and them
If i can be better, i would. Why do they think otherwise instead?
I just need some space for myself, for me to release stress after long day work too. There's too much other than this.

Anyway, i finally got the cliques back for CNY celebration in Dss yesterday. But dearest yuan wasn't able to make it.
Performance was average, except for some parts and the finale item.
Lunched, bballed, chit-chatted and went on separate ways.
Ant and me accompanied Dearest for his eye check-up, entertained ourselves with the blasting of music and pranking the exchange of phones. Lot1, and left for work in the late afternoon.

Was supposed to get the cliques together for another lunch/dinner gathering, but i don't seemed to get any response till now. Now, i became to miss the mugging sessions in the past and jotting down the events that's gonna happen in the calendar of me and dearest sitting partner. The big clique now, which i don't know where has it gone to. Different directions, different hang-outs, different lives. It's the usual 3 of us, me ant ham, every now and then. Maybe, somehow I'm just thinking too much. I don't know anymore?

Ended work at 12am last night, work at 630am today.
Cecilia's my partner beside me again! :)
The non stop crowd really can make me go bonkers.
Anyway, met my kukuhead and headed over to town area.
KFC for super late lunch, and headed back to his house for dinner!
Sorry (L)

The big Reunion dinner day, CNY's eve tmrw.
I ain't any excited about it, but rather the part of getting ang-bao(s)
Work tomorrow AGAIN.

Im shag out!
I pray, everything will be better soon.

Tags Replies,

-♥ MONICA: Heh, i saw you too that day! I came back for fun one lah dey! :)
-Genevieve: I'll de. Hmm havent got my posting results, most prob april? :D
- sarah: Hi nehneh!
- QingPing: Aiyer, why never call me ah you! :D you too sweetaye! happy cny!
- QIANMEI: Set a date man! I want it too! I'm turning WHITER.
- sarah: But if you really want, i won't blame you lah! :)
- sarah: Cause what lah dey? halfway one siah! Kuku!
- sarah: Need to write so big ah! you nehneh! box you ah! :D
- sarah: you now techno juniors pass down to juniors of juniors! LOL.
- kaien: hahah, yupyup! :) I don use those bags hor! LOL. she's in guzheng!

2009-01-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

Wish I could turn back the hands of time,

I'm in a happy mode today, finally!
But now, it's damn ruined due to some reasons! Gah :/

Anyway, changed shift with my colleague today. Ended up working in the morning shift today. Created a mess at home before i left for work. Shan't elaborate what happen, my clumsiness! Work's been rather alright, esp with Cecilia around. I can't help but laughed whenever she tells me things. Ohwell, my entertainer at work! :) Typical customers once again, i hated those kind of demands they wanted! So _______.

Work ended early and i got home to changed up. My kukuhead just got back from his medical checkup with those friggin ____ wounds after the blood tests. Lunched with him, and headed over to school. Ant came back for his training too! :) Slacked around with Enqi before she left, and watched the bball girls for their trainings. Left early with cousin back home.

I can't read their mind anymore,
Every single thing I am doing or had done seemed wrong.
But it doesn't give them any rights to invade my privacy.
Once again, they meant --- my attitude sucks.
Why do they give me a feeling that i dread going home now.
Disappointment spells everything, understand my feelings too will you?

2009-01-21T20:45:00.005+08:00

I don't know where to start or where to stop,

I wonder why am i feeling this way.
It's been days, really feeling empty inside.
I don't know how to play it like

Anyway, work's been fun today finally!
Taking over colleagues while they're out for break,
Helping out with packing those stuffs on the shelves,
Stacking those cupboards at the backdoor,
And those kuku guys kept asking me questions.
Lastly, my customers are great today too!
Mrs Yeo came over to buy things too! :)

Every time I pour out my emotions,
It'll be of no good ending, there goes my emo-ing mood.
Im sorry (L)

2009-01-20T21:03:00.009+08:00

Simple things that will make you run away,

I'm back to wipe off dust from my blog.
Life's the same, nothing besides work mostly.
I really really missed those fun out there.

Anyway, town with Dearest on Sunday. New Year Shopping, walk around from Fareast -- Orchard -- and to Bugis.
Bought damn lots of things, & there goes the big hole in my pocket.
Hit Sentosa in the evening, & went for dinner.
Song of the Sea in the night, and it's really GREAT.

Yesterday, back to school out of boredness! Ant went back with me too.Anyway, chatted with bookshop auntie, slacked. Lunched, and headed home with cousin.

Im off! :)

2009-01-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

Tags Replies,

JunHao: Updated le lah dey! :) You're far more lazy hor!
JunHao: Now no more Santa le! Boo, it's DESIRES!
Genevieve: Aiyer, i guessed it'll be total different from yours! :)
Genevieve: Yeah sure! I'll update you lah! HOHO!
♥ MONICA: Cause you too good liao! LOL!
kaien: Yesh future manager! Haas! :) Updated lah dey!
jaslyn: Hey girl! :)
sarah: Nonono, is really slowwwwww yeah? HOHO!
sarah: I lost the interest to update le lah! Im lazier and lazier! :D
sarah: How to ownself grow? I buy seed grow inside my heart de!
sarah: tsktsktsk! How can you be so rough! LOL! :)
sarah: SPAM what seh! It's oh so dead now! :/

2009-01-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

Tags Replies,

sarah: is LAO REN chi dai zheng liao lah dey! :)
sarah: Heh, heck heck! She punish you i whack her! Joking! :D
sarah: Aiyer, next time no reaction from you i go emo liao wor. LOL
sarah: Ofcourse, my mom gave me a weird shape heart! idk why!
sarah: i suddenly feel like deleting blog again! Ahhh _____!
♥ MONICA: Nah, can one lah dey! i so lousy one also can, so can you! :)
Genevieve: Aiseh, how was it man? Im curious somehow! (L) yo!
kaien: That's good! Aiyer, must see you around in school soon kay! :D
sarah: LOL! S-D-O-W-N!

2009-01-15T09:57:00.003+08:00

Different dreams,
different pathways.

Work's been rotating round my life now,
And i've lost the energy to do my own things nowadays.

Anyway, I've also got all my 12 choices in my mind.
And i had gotten my mind set right of what i chose too! :)
Thanks to my dearest Aunt.
Now, it's going to be up to fate already.

P.s I'm craving for Oreo Cheesecake now.
Oh, and i loveeeee my kukuhead!
Hawhaw.

Till then,

2009-01-15T09:45:00.000+08:00

Tags Replies,

-Kaien: Heh, thanks lah dey! Future Manager yo! (L) How's school?
♥ MONICA: NgeeAnn most probably. Business Studies! :) FANGYUAN!
JunHao: You then the big kuku lah dey! (L)(L)
Genevieve: Heh! Business Studies, NgeeAnn! :)
sarah: Heh, i posted back for you hor nehneh!
sarah: Nah, can work hard for it one man! PLUS add more oil yo! :)
sarah: My heart's out of shape one mah! :) SQUARISH! LOL.
sarah: where got? Two different sides lah dey. Aiyer, call you never hear one.
sarah: STM ah you? LOL. good what! Art don need work so hard. heck care :D