I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,
April's drawing in a few days time, and I'm finally getting back on track to the studying and mugging life I've lost for the past long few months. Pretty much looking forward for the new term though i cant imagine how it'll be like. Maybe because Im tired of the work life now, very much wanting to leave and take a break.
Work's been rather mundane nowadays, and i guessed I'm more to the side of dreading work life instead of enjoying it. Long working hours, typical attitude and the many things going on here and there. Oh, and relief's been a blast. I finally got a taste of how our teachers really have to put up with different sorts of student. But it's been great to be able to play lil games with them, or even them sharing things with you. One thing i hated, attitude.
Anyway, it's Sports Day in Dunearn yesterday. Left work earlier than usual, and before that I was really wishing time would fly fast enough though. Changed and rushed down to school to help with the stuffs for the event. Had been walking aimlessly around for the whole afternoon, prolly don't know what i should do. And also just helping out a lil with the reception area, watching the cheer&dance performance, taking snapshots around, catching up with ex classmates and teachers. Had dinner tgt with the JAs and teachers, caught up with each other, long meeting sessions, and homed finally.
Had a terrible night after i got home. Probably I was getting real tired of things going on around, and no one, not even them understands a single bit of me except all the hurtful words from their mouths. Tossed and turned till the late night before i could finally get into some sleep. Shattered heart, empty mind.
I got out of the house in the noon, prolly can't stand the whole atmosphere i'm getting at home though i was really tired mentally. Met up with Love and we changed our mind for IMM instead of West Coast. Shopped the whole entire mall, walking aimlessly to waste time, and i was craving for food, and more food for the whole day. Best ah, i see FATS appearing already. Dearest Sitting Partner's busy with school, didnt managed to see her this week though.
Have they been understanding me all these while? Or more towards finding faults on me, determining im getting bad with my attitude and my life. I've changed, so did you guys. Ever thought of listening to my feelings before, or just only assume more and more things which i just cant defend myself with. Do i still feel that warmth being in the family, probably it's down a huge percentages. Do i even have the chance to explain myself, do i have the rights for anything? Do they give a thought of how i would feel, shooting me with endless stuffs that comes to your mind? Disappointment was what you all think i gave, naggings was what i should deserve? The words you all said you cared, i can't feel it at all. I'm just getting tired of all these. What's family love all about?
I love&miss you kay, Mr Lit Jun Hao!
April's drawing in a few days time, and I'm finally getting back on track to the studying and mugging life I've lost for the past long few months. Pretty much looking forward for the new term though i cant imagine how it'll be like. Maybe because Im tired of the work life now, very much wanting to leave and take a break.
Work's been rather mundane nowadays, and i guessed I'm more to the side of dreading work life instead of enjoying it. Long working hours, typical attitude and the many things going on here and there. Oh, and relief's been a blast. I finally got a taste of how our teachers really have to put up with different sorts of student. But it's been great to be able to play lil games with them, or even them sharing things with you. One thing i hated, attitude.
Anyway, it's Sports Day in Dunearn yesterday. Left work earlier than usual, and before that I was really wishing time would fly fast enough though. Changed and rushed down to school to help with the stuffs for the event. Had been walking aimlessly around for the whole afternoon, prolly don't know what i should do. And also just helping out a lil with the reception area, watching the cheer&dance performance, taking snapshots around, catching up with ex classmates and teachers. Had dinner tgt with the JAs and teachers, caught up with each other, long meeting sessions, and homed finally.
Had a terrible night after i got home. Probably I was getting real tired of things going on around, and no one, not even them understands a single bit of me except all the hurtful words from their mouths. Tossed and turned till the late night before i could finally get into some sleep. Shattered heart, empty mind.
I got out of the house in the noon, prolly can't stand the whole atmosphere i'm getting at home though i was really tired mentally. Met up with Love and we changed our mind for IMM instead of West Coast. Shopped the whole entire mall, walking aimlessly to waste time, and i was craving for food, and more food for the whole day. Best ah, i see FATS appearing already. Dearest Sitting Partner's busy with school, didnt managed to see her this week though.
Have they been understanding me all these while? Or more towards finding faults on me, determining im getting bad with my attitude and my life. I've changed, so did you guys. Ever thought of listening to my feelings before, or just only assume more and more things which i just cant defend myself with. Do i still feel that warmth being in the family, probably it's down a huge percentages. Do i even have the chance to explain myself, do i have the rights for anything? Do they give a thought of how i would feel, shooting me with endless stuffs that comes to your mind? Disappointment was what you all think i gave, naggings was what i should deserve? The words you all said you cared, i can't feel it at all. I'm just getting tired of all these. What's family love all about?
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